For the majority of my adult life I’ve been a smoker. I do not remember exactly when I started to smoke. To me it isn’t exactly a red-letter day that I wish to enshrine in my personal memory space.

I guess I must have been about eighteen. This is actually the age in most countries and cultures that a person turns into an adult; a responsible and mature person who should determine what is good and what’s bad.

Well, I started to smoke. I fell madly in love with Lady Nicotine and succumbed to her nefarious charms. This affair has lasted for nearly a lifetime.

However, I’ve recently realized that I want out of a relationship that is simply not good for me. Metaphors aside, I’m now determined to quit smoking. I am making active efforts in that direction.

I’ve not been capable of quitting cold turkey. Stopping smoking isn’t as easy as it sounds. At least for me it has not been a cakewalk, as for a long time I used to be in a denial mode and I wanted to have my cake and eat it too.

Everything recently started when i chose to adopt a jogging regimen, as I desired to shed weight. There’s a small yet steep hill right in the heart of the jogging course which i frequent. I just couldn’t quite negotiate the hill. I was huffing and puffing all over the place by the time I arrived at the top in most cases needed to stop to gather my breath.

The irony of it struck me that I was going over the hill but was incapable to make it over that hill. The jogging routine had shaken not just stagnant tissue and muscle but additionally my conscience. I was starting to make some progress, but that hill bothered me.

A little goes a long way was never as obvious to me as once i took up jogging in an attempt to give up smoking. I blundered on. I was determined to make a difference. It was a good 3 months before I could negotiate that hill without almost collapsing and going down on my knees.

My efforts began to pay off! I started to feel better about my body and myself. I was breathing, sleeping and eating much better. I haven’t been able to quit smoking yet! But I am working at it! Everydaythere are a variety of battles I win once i refuse myself a smoke. There are battles that i lose as well. The war continues to be on. I’m sure I will win. Someday I will quit smoking. I simply hope it isn’t too late when i finally manage to quit!

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